So aside from going to an Allergist when I started to become chronically ill. It had been going on for yrs but got progressively worse. Firstly, they made me come off everything in one go which causes a major flare up in MCAS, not then knowing what I suffered with, they also gave me a list of foods and drinks which were extremely toxic for me / super high in histamine. I got worse. I told them what was going on and the reply was spine tingling. I knew things weren’t right. They then conveniently closed before my time with them was up, leaving me with all these symptoms. Ppl around me, gaslighting me. The Doctors had done this previously but we’ll return to that another day. They knew / know exactly what’s going on.
Mum got wind of it of course and was feeding me my trigger foods in bucket loads. She took me to an Allergist yrs ago, so I assume the same thing has been going on for years. Getting me on medication when I didn’t need it. Abusing me but telling the Services repeatedly through letters etc that I was mentally unstable and abusive towards her. My Step Dad, Uncle and Dad’s Fam are behind it all. They did the same thing to my Dad for years which eventually killed him. The thing is. My Mum has similar symptoms to me so she’s also been making herself sick in the process. They play us off one another so maybe another tactic.
Had me and my Dad, followed, monitored and abused for years. Smear Campaigns to make us out to be the mad ones. I believed some of it…..even at my Dad’s Funeral. My family are sabotaging me constantly and getting ppl to damage my Flat on purpose so I have to go back to them. It’s about control and getting my property of course. Originally, it might’ve been so that Mum and Julian got custody of me. Also – Dad’s being a non-conformist and myself but whenever we tried to do what everyone else was doing, was heavily mocked in groups and belittled, given shitty jobs etc. I’m more than capable but always ended up in positions of volunteering, not earning money. My Nan worked her arse off and was treated in the same vein. The NHS is extremely dark. They’re making certain ppl sick on purpose, also to come in to save the day, look for cures, raise money for charity to come across as Philanthropist’s but it’s all bollox. Some of it is true and of course there are beautiful, genuine advocates……and usually they’re treated with the most discontempt. They have had me groomed and sexually abused to cover the abuse itself, to make out I’m promiscuous. All co-ercian, setups plus to turn others against us, to isolate us. The Papers are also responsible and set my Dad up loads. Me too. Them and the Authorities etc hack our homes and our phones…..even using the power of suggestion via apps to get us to do certain things.
Some of it I’m grateful for but will talk about that another day. Today I need to rant and grieve. They’ve upped the game now so they’re not exposed. I also found a letter from someone when I was young addressed to my Mum. They said a family member had abused them sexually. I don’t know if that’s true but Mum acted in the same vein. Called her a liar and promiscuous. Shamed her like she shamed me / still shames me whilst encouraging me into the first instance. I called my Mum out on her stuff yet again recently….and after yet another disaster in my Flat, had to call her. She said she would help but didn’t want any insults afterwards. Not insults, the truth. Provoked for yrs too, as was Dad to make us out to be the abusive ones. I imagine Dad himself was abusive to me on the back of what they were doing so they could pin everything on him. Maybe he was threatened to be as well, God knows. They made out he was wrapping me up in cotton wool when in fact, he no doubt knew what was going on and was genuinely trying to protect me.
The Kiddle family said they took me in after he kicked me out. He didn’t kick me out. Experiences at home were very difficult so they offered then made things ten times worse for me……I now know on purpose. Caused loads of horrible things to happen / increasing my trauma…..maybe to end up in such a bad place that I would eventually end up living with Mum at the age of 23. That first day / night was one of the worst nights of my life. Chilling and just a glimpse of things to come.
They currently sabotage me to help me then make things worse to cause a constant turbulence of stress. Have never wanted me to succeed and have even set me up in creative environments to fail. Awful stuff. If I was the abusive one, then why am I constantly trying to get away / distance myself from them??? I question Andy Downey on his practices from time to time, same shit and working on behalf of them.
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9th Jan / Approx 23:55 – After writing the above – Blue Light Bigade drove past my Flat. Silent Flashing Lights. As predicted. Pattern Recognition in full flow!!! Not necessarily The Police but someone with blue flashing lights. Intimidation / past trauma tactic!
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Whilst watching the last Series of Line of Duty before the new one comes out, The Boyz in Blue drive past as the cast draw a critical conclusion. Their lights flashing with a silent scare, as they hack into me Named Blog fanfare. Sharing a pic of an abusive Dick who’s preferential power saw him tower as a Pro after a night on da snow!
Never did I think the fictional would become a reality as I appear on reality TV with a Bent in a Copperered Pipe Dream turn Nightmare mentality. I just shared a pic you see of an Ex Lover Prison Guard bisexuality. Passing me around for sex / to keep me stuck in a Gang full of the criminally corrupt!…….
I’m still searching for the original premise as they profiled me from a child in Hainault with an A, not an H, Grandaughter of Dennis. I’ve got a fair idea, but the intertwined enmeshment isn’t Crystal clear. So many branches veering Off, to different groups within the Hasselblad without the Hoff!
Surrealism in Surburbia as I re-visit Disturbia. Wtf are / were me Fam and past friends involved in? as I join A12 in a mutual Stakeout Schwing. Wanting control as they constantly patrol, to cover up the abuse with organised patruse!
I’m in the process of changing me name by deeds. Paid, got the certs, got the t-shirt but never got it witnessed nor changed me bank, utility bills etc for various reasons. I was advised to start using Micah to see how it felt, and I loved it to begin with, but now I’m not so sure. Tbf, if you didn’t know how to pronounce it, you could still read it as me original name. Originally, I wanted to change me name so I could get away from me fam (not knowing then they were having me followed and anything confidential wasn’t / isn’t confidential) plus it sounded a bit more like the new me. A kinda spunkier version. A bit of a they pronoun I guess but now I’m not so sure. After all that plus changing me email address to begin with, it just doesn’t feel right. Gonna give meself a bit more time to think about it but also better to original it up for practical reasons too. I threw away a piece of paperwork by mistake / kinda thinking I didn’t need it anymore, but maybe I did. Who knows. To be continued……..
Some kind of shift has occurred. I haven’t resorted to any kind of behaviour that would warrent my Ex coming to see me, i.e – giving in to what he wants – Sex. I’ve rung and messaged him around his behaviour – Organising people to follow me / setups etc, telling him he won’t get away with it but I haven’t given in to the above for a few months now. I’ve unfortunately gone the other way where I’m now viewing sex as bad. It’s understandable considering what I’ve been through, so I defo need to look at that, but sex with him is unsafe!!! He also loves me to begin for that kind of intimacy cause he’s incapable of any other kind of intimacy, all to make me feel worthless and in need of his attention. I managed to stay away for time before, and it’s heading that way again……thank God. He had me followed to therapy / recovery meetings online / hospital – everywhere you could think of…..to keep me silenced but I didn’t stay silenced but was heavily dismissed by the Services connected to him. Cover Up after Cover Up.
His only role was to keep me stuck anyways. Sent in to do a job…….literally!
To be continued…….
18th Dec 2025
Stalker Dan, Tom Collett, James Musician and Mini Lady Community Officer who appeared in me, shared pics, and Vids were on da Case in Sainsbury’s tonight as I struggled with still feeling poorly Angel’s Delight. I’d already said “hi” to the Cameras in Boots el scannered to hide me health in a picture of health, but they eventually got to me as my body let me down haphazardly. The CO bumped into me on purpose, trying to cause a reaction in surplus, so I looked on and ignored their commandments to bring me down with dirty disarments. Plus the anxiety of having people potentially here whilst I’m still recovering from illness adhere nearly pushed me over the edge, so I rang Mother with disengaged dread because my health has to come first, even over Flat Repairs before I leave in a Hurst. But we shall see after a day apres. I don’t think they get it yet. Every time they sabotage me, I further reject…..not run back to them like they expect.
I’m in serious danger! But I refuse to stay silent. Years and years of harassment for what? And they expected me to just carry on putting up with it? I also know more than I knew I know if that makes sense. It’s coming from other sources including power of suggestion tactics etc. They’re kinda setting me up to be an even bigger threat. God knows what they’ve told people. I know some of it but fuck knows what else. I mean – what we’re they telling ppl about me as a Child? Just born / bred into bullying others who aren’t like them. It’s disgusting!
Literally – all you have to do – is say ‘No’ to these peeps, and that’s IT. You’re on da HIT List. Now 2025, featuring The Mason Mob by Femcee Moo and da Knobs! Control Freaks causing Wiki Leaks in Mischa’s Flat minus Arthur da Cat. When I find out who killed him, plus placed a Dead Cat outside Mum’s Gaff, pretending it was Oscar, which was pretty Naf. I’m gonna call em out with a Catty Trout! I ave a good idea, but it’s always a group effort. Not forgetting the Fish in a tanked top sitch, I was in tears of hell as they know my buttons to ‘Ah, push it, p-push it real good’. They’re going to or trying to do that again, I swear. I think they posted pics of Mum’s Muffin (lil black Cat) to get to me. She got me to get a pic of him so they could study him carefully. These people are dark and sick in da head, been bred to make others appear or wanna be dead.
I nearly slipped into old patterns of working harder on meself, when what I really needed was something silly like Elf on da Shelf 😅🤣😂. I need to include more fun into me ‘Oh my dayz’, although a lil difficult in da Masons Maze, but hey, I’ve always been a Pro at entertaining Mischa, Micah & Moo, So a few less characters will have to do 😅🤣😂. I was born to Act, as a memory recollects where me Dad was sat……in a hospital bed at Barts. He asked me (in front of others). Who are you today? As I placed me glasses over me eyes for a Secretarial display. He jokingly told them that I change me Character depending on the circumstance, I didn’t even realise he had observed this with an editorial enhance. This kinda thing is ‘A Typical’, though, as we try to fit in, but suits the Arts to a Cream Tea as I raise me pinky to bring out the Thespian in me 😅🤣😂
Anyways, back to da bleak – It doesn’t matter that I’m in da minority, as soon as I started to come away from everyone, my self-esteem improved. The proof is in da Xmas Pudding 🍮……to be continued……
14th December 2025 – feeling super sad as a memory pops up around a certain Dance School. I was so excited, I was waiting for it to open as I adored the Owners work. So I kissed the building, bowed down to it, danced alongside it. And when I first started to bump into the Bro’s or spot them from a distance, me heart lit up then it took a sinister turn. I’m not sure if they thought I was taking the piss or not, but they became a small part of the organised harassment……along with an actor, I really admired. I was even gonna try a class out but decided not to as I wanted to do me own thing. I did well in one of Muvva’s shows, but I defo couldn’t handle the more gym type antics. I guess you learn but I have to be careful with me health. I come down with flu type symptoms after a walk. I’m more of an adlib type Mover anyways. Since then, I’ve sworn at their cameras, etc. Instead of having adult conversations about matters, they just start following ya and using really dark tactics. They can’t stand NOT being in control or me putting boundaries in now / not falling for their manipulative tactics. This goes for all of em. The Network is massive. I’m sarcastic on the back of others being absolute C****s. Cause they’re that way, they assume everyone is. Autistic Joy is a thing you know, and ppl have taken the puss out of me for it my whole life…..probably because they’re miserable Bar Stewards! Nor am I here to investigate or call out every single Mason in the industry, but I will stand up for myself when you come for me. I have never and don’t deserve it! Again, I can separate their talent from da Club. I will always be appreciative of incredible art!
I felt upset with me Vid at first re Sporty Spice aka Mel C. It came out like a p***s take, but I meant every word. I was just trying to capture her essence. I nearly didn’t post it, I was so worried. Me Mum told me not to worry at the time cause she comes across as having a wicked good sense of humour. I mainly do impressions of people I adore / include ode’s to them in me Vids. See Flavour Flav / Eminem type visuals. I then went to see Public Enemy at Albert Hall. I love them. Of course I take the pee out of peeps that have been absolute Twats as well just wanted to get that out of the way. Oh, and lastly Strictly. I’ve been a fan for years. I guessed I’d never get on it so decided to make me own Vid re me fantasy about being on the Show. I wanted to play all the parts (I also paid to see the Live Show a couple of years back, a lifelong dream of mine. Annoyed that I went with a Partt Pooper but still really enjoyed it. Twas amazeballs). Doing impressions of peeps was me first creative pursuit.
I started around the age of three. I used to watch and copy Suggs from Madness. Apparently I used to set up a table and do the Royal Fam and Maggie Thatcher too, obvs not a Tory or Lover of the establishment. Not anymore. I never really was just got blindsided by people around me. The above were good voices to practice with, though, and me faves were Brookside Characters & Hilary From May to December at School. I’ve done me own versions of peeps in me Vids, not exact replications / or in the style of but as long as peeps get the jist etc. Sometimes, I’ll watch a music vid / film and I’ll start copying the person or persons immediately. I just do it naturally, it’s a bit of an Autistic thing to do as well! I sometimes did impressions of me classmates when I got home especially if they’d been a Prick to me. Me Dad used to crack up. I also played every single character on me Radio Shows, from Young. Me Old Man thought it was good enough to send into a Radio Station or a Dept within the Arts. The best tape of this went missing, absolutely gutted. I also speak like / sing like some of me hero’s as well as being truly influenced by them / have similar tastes etc / been through similar experiences plus I haven’t listened to everyone’s back catalogue.
It’s been so lovely to re-visit what I naturally did as a child and got erased somewhere along the lines amongst all the mentalness. I lost all me confidence!!!
After sharing me dirty laundry in public, I nipped to the Launderette to share me dirty laundry in private. My, how Friday night’s have changed. I’ve swapped all nighters for Washine Machine and Dryer delighters! Me proud lil noggin refused to give in to the Electrical Companies dirty trickster ways, so I sought after an adventure in a perfectly powdered haze. Haha, it even looks like cocaine, without the highs and later the shame. I felt panicked re the Machines as I haven’t been since a Teen, so I asked shit loads of questions to ‘Stranger Things’ with aided apprehension. I come across as super bubbly when I’m feeling flat, to cover up me awkwardness with small talk n’chat. Thankfully, the peeps on the other end seemed to be happy to recommend, plus I really did view it as being a Grown Up, since I was stunted for years as an Adult reverted to a Child with a ‘you can’t do it’ attitude so “Shut Up”.
It felt good to take back control after handing it over to Muvva with a depleted Soul. I quite enjoyed meself as it goes, plus it worked out better for me – both practically and economically with “I’m a fully functioning Adult with goals”. Self-esteem-tick, 1-0 to me, and yes it is a competition between them and me 😅🤣😂As soon as I make a small step into helping meself, that old helpless head reinvents itself. That “you can’t cope” conscience ain’t even coming from me. It’s fam projection nonsense, so I challenge me Washing Machine head (scuse the pun) before going to bed, and reach out to da Samaritans with “I need support” reaction. As soon as I see the warning signs, I pick up that phone so I don’t end up in a melancholy moan. I’d rather the mentalness come from me, so I can clear me name to a certain degree. I’ve worn me heart on me sleeve from the very start, to empower meself and others from the lies, I depart.
Ppl will always believe what they wanna believe but I need to represent a fair case to the public in “I’m a Prick” reprieve. I don’t think that’s a fair statement cause what do ya do in scenarios full of abatement??? All you can do is survive another Day and keep speaking up. You have to fight these Bastards with a one to two fingers up. Oh, I remember why now. I feel like a proper Mug for sharing me financial status with Madness n’ Suggs. Talk about oversharing, but they workplace mob ya with a ‘you can’t earn discerning’, we’re gonna destroy your Property so you need us Laparoscopy. The reason I feel so embarrassed about that Post and ltr deleted it was due to feeling defeated and rather shit. It made me appear too vulnerable, so I followed it up with a trick Ala Debbie Magee, assisting Paul Daniels. Humour is me go to you see, a bubble full of Comfort Fabric Conditioner by the Crashing Sea, so I reverted back into a nostalgic track, and played the part of me Persona in heart. Feels good to be back to me proper bants, where me Poetry started in a blogging rant.
So I bid you adieu as I watch some Stand Up Comedy, from where the magic stopped happening Rom Comtragedy xxx
Just had a convo with Muvva. I wish I’d recorded it now. She spoke to the Letting Agents for upstairs re my ongoing Leak. She mentioned me being Autistic etc to ramp up how vulnerable I am. I am to a certain extent, but I’m also very capable and assertive. Being Autistic means I can be more direct, etc. It 💯% takes more energy, though, as communication gets lost at times, as well as dealing with nasty pieces of work and having to deal with small talk. I don’t get small talk, never have. Drives me insane! It really disempowers me though, and she loves that. The amount of times (even though my Mum is a take no shit kinda person) I’ve had to speak on her behalf / protect her etc is off the scale cause she can’t put a boundary in. She also has to ramp it up because I put healthy boundaries in, just to be superior to me, cause her emotional intelligence is that of a Child’s. That goes for all of me, fam, because they refuse to do the work! And take any accountability for their shit!
Then made me believe I was ill for years, etc, and basically couldn’t look after meself. It’s all in me Doctors Notes, the letters she wrote to them, complete fabrication considering she was the one isolating me to a degree and making me that way, also leaning on me emotionally. She even tried getting a ‘Carers Allowance’ at some stage, not sure if she pulled that one off or not. It’s only since moving out properly that I’ve proved how capable I am over and over again. She even ramps up the dramatics when she needs help from, say, an energy company, etc, then reverts back to who she actually is when that phone goes down. I keep repeating meself with all this I know, but I kinda need to. They have sabotaged her earning her own money for years as well, but she’s too proud to maybe ever accept or believe that. The fantasy is more alluring you see. I get that, been there meself.
I even clapped her once, and said “and the award goes to”. She tried to hit me but I caught her hand in the process. I have the reactions of a Ninja Cat 😻 🐈⬛️ She just used the exact same words I used in my Blog. These peeps are such Wimps. They’ll constantly let you know they know what you’ve said by constantly spying on me, etc, but they can’t come out and say out. It took a while for me to cotton on to that stuff cause they say it as though they’re going through or have been through the exact same experience. I just thought ‘wow, that’s a coincidence’ so never had the desired effect for ages as I’m naturally a literal thinker. So I would respond in a ‘that’s happened to you kinda way’ without getting upset or the hump because I didn’t get it. So funny 😆😅🤣😂. I’ve really had to learn that one, and at times – it can still go over me head as it takes a while for me brain to process it. Then you question them, and they’ll deny it. All part of the gaslighting game! She’s the abusive one and provokes me on a regular basis.
Wish I hadn’t rung her now as I fell into old patterns really, plus I said I wouldn’t call until next week – around Thursday. Kinda needed to discuss the Flat but stepped over me own boundaries really. She loves that too so she can then turn it around, and say she’ll call me next week some time. It’s a power play. It’s all about abandonment issues. And typical of Narcissistic Parents. I don’t care how Catty I was about Frankie’s Show. He’s an absolute Twat and it’s the truth. She plays us off one another anyway. I refused to send over me Creative Vids. They watch everything I’m doing anyway, and she’ll 💯 % use it to piss Frankie & Mel off. Again, playing our talents off one another and wanting my self-esteem to come from her, needing validation and the like. Fuck that!Sometimes that jealousy from Frankie and Mel is actually coming from Mother. This is what Narcissistic Parents do. They don’t really want you all getting on and supporting one another. That doesn’t feed their needs. Plus, they always gang up on me, hence as to why I’m the Scapegoat. They play the game, and I leave em to it 😆😅🤣 x
Plus Mum’s offering to spk to Andy now. When I had to tell the Police about him due to pushing me etc, she didn’t wanna know. Refused to answer the phone! I imagine they’re connected anyways. Frankie had a Show last night. We fell out a while back after I finally stood up to him in person after he was an absolute C**t. Him and Mum speaking down to me as per, pretending they cared / care for me after everything they put me through, including calling the Police etc when I put boundaries in. They play so dirty. Anyways, I was gonna go due to being followed and on my own. Mum said it wasn’t a good idea but kinda think that’s what she was hoping for, as long as I played the good little girl. Took his side as per. I forgot Mel was staying the wkd. She was gonna be there too. I got so upset and angry, I hung up. Tbf, I don’t think I was ever gonna go anyway, plus they’d love it if I did then kicked off etc. Any excuse to make me out to be the bad one cause I’m exposing them. Thank God I didn’t go. So far away from my bag anyways x
This is the kind of gaslighting messages I receive from Mother after causing me serious harm for yrs, sabotaging me on purpose and lying to the Doctors and other ppl around me
‘Hi Mischa how are you. Hamilton would like to go in your flat and fix the things that aren’t working no cost of course. David from Woodfell has called to try and help. He sounded very nice. I have asked Hamilton and Andrew to send Woodfell detailed reports of your flat. Also while water is pouring down the walls your electrics will still be affected. I explained to David you have autism and have suffered breathing problems. I have given him your number. He needs photos please send to him office@woodfell.co.uk. just to say I’m not taking over. You were the one who called me at 1.00am to ask for help. I’m your Mother and love you unconditionally and can’t bare to see you suffer. X’
It makes me feel sick. She completely took over and started arranging Electricians then Plumbers straight afterwards without checking with me first. As in when to start the work. I had to put serious boundaries in as I needed a break in-between. The last time I put boundaries in, and said I didn’t want to discuss the Flat with her and Julian anymore, wanted to make my own decisions etc. She said I didn’t wanna talk to them anymore (not what I said) then accused me of having an attitude problem, shut the door in my face and later blocked me, cause I then called her out on all her stuff. I knew she’d use the Autism Card to make me seem less capable than I am, cause ‘I’m the one being over sensitive etc’. It’s bullshit. Oh, and the lights didn’t even go out during the surge.
When I rang her about the leak, she banged on about well if I had allowed Rory, her & Julian to help me last time etc, it would be okay. There was no leak, just the damage from before. Like I said a good year – to two yrs prior. Hates to see me suffer, she loves it so she can then come in and rescue me and tell everyone that I’m not coping etc. I have taught myself how to do so many things after moving out at last including diy. My survival skills are top notch. I’m super capable, much more than she’d ever gave me credit for. Telling me I was ill all the time, and couldn’t do such and such etc. Drugged up on medication I should never have been on in the first place. Also, she’s using the Autism Card now to de-value me but she hasn’t even recognised it since going for my first assessment, or listened to my support needs around it, just wants to fix me in the way she thinks I need. Also, my Mum needs a Project, it makes her feel superior!
I don’t want those guys back round atm. I certainly don’t wanna be back in touch with my Mother especially after reading that Doctors Report. It’s heartbreaking. They’re having me followed ffs and all sorts of other dark stuff! Like I said – the truth will come out. She usef the same tactics as above when calling the Police and Ambulance Service on me cause I stood up to her, making out I was suicidal etc from past experiences. I was driven to those dark places by the likes of her and other very dark people. Also, when I’ve said I need more support around being Autistic before, she’s completely dismissed me with ‘you’re only slightly Autistic aren’t you?’
This further the narratives that only they can sort things out, cause obviously the Companies accidentally on purpose don’t listen to me! Setup upon setup. Also, to make out I’m going mad, I’m paranoid etc. Nah, quite the opposite and that’s what they CANNOT stand.
I tested me theory out the other day. Apparently there’s something wrong with Mother’s Phone. There might be but I texted her two Boundried Messages, no answer. As soon as I text her re ‘I was going to cancel the work being done next week’ – she instantly got back to me then played the same mobile story. I’ve done that with quite a few peeps over the past couple of years, and my gut feeling is always spot on around that stuff!
If I’ve put up with cold water in my Shower for 2 years, an ongoing leak for the past 3 months over ringing my folks for help. That speaks volumes doesn’t it, and I’m already regretting it.
Rang Andy again. He doesn’t have the bollox to face me on his own. Has to threaten me with groups etc. Coward!
Since Day 1, constant problems with me Flat. Trades Peeps fix one thing in their area of expertise, then break another. Every single time so I’ve come to expect it. Should’ve checked everything before they left, but they confuse ya on purpose. I did me best and proper asserted meself around everything else, especially when Hamilton took over as if it was his Flat when the Plumbers arrived. Fuck that. That’s not just a ME problem, mind you, bit of a universal thing…..that, and they took a couple of things I said to heart. Talk about insecure. Anyways I digress,everything else is most certainly NOT a coincidence, it’s a very well recognised pattern. Masons!!! Although she’s a part of some of it, Mother is still super naive. She won’t listen to me. I told her it’s never gonna STOP! Fuck knows. It’s difficult to know whose doing what at times because they’re all connected, it’s a serious Network but there’s also different groups within that like anything. Ppl playing ppl off one another so God knows what kind of other politics are going on, but I intend on finding out. I’m not the only one they’re trying to play cause they’re also against one another in some respects. It must be some kind of heirichy system I guess. I don’t pay any attention to heirichies so I wouldn’t know 😆😅🤣. They hate this about the ones who stand up to them. I don’t care who they are, if they come for me, I’m fighting back……end of!
James Short Southchurch / Next-door App
Woodfell
Easy Estates – Sam and Joel (surnames to come). I was going to physically go to the Office but Mum & Hilary Webster her friend Ex Estate Agent etc talked me out of it. They both have loads of contacts in that field, funny that.
Hair & Son’s Simon Smith / Harry Stephens. Looks about 15 😅🤣😂
Leaders Estate Agents,
Gilbert & Rose Estate Agents – Sam Bibby also works for this Company,
Bryden Electrical Company – Hamilton & Shane did a grand job. Lights were working when they arrived, and then suddenly they weren’t, plus me washing machine. Funny that, ay. Yes, could’ve tripped, but they were also encouraging my folks to spend a fortune on mending the leak and replacing my bathroom ceiling. They also get a kick out of you being upset / calling them back to do extra work.
George’s Plumbers –
Bethany Millington BLM Bathroom Installations,
All reputable Companies to a degree, unless you’re being targeted by their Network! They do a really good job in one area then fuck with something else. Keeps the money flowing in to their businesses though, and the system all round, and me stuck. Exactly what they want!
I’m still betting on Rory Mulholland being behind the majority of the Flat Issues as well as Andy Downey’s lot – obvs connected, the writings on the wall! Obvs Mum & Julian too,
Fam – Sheen Doran harassing me re me getting my Dad’s money before he’d even died. I paid for her rental debt and telly etc but there’s a lot more too it. Has been lying to the Doctors I recently found out re my mental health for years. Things were bad enough when she used to take me herself but I didn’t realise she was sending them letters aswell. Co-ercing me into being a little girl again as an adult, I assumed it was due to her missing out on a lot of my childhood cause Dad got custody of me but something far darker was at hand. Then using it to make out how ill I was / am. Constantly telling me I was ill also and would threaten to get the Doctors in when I cried in response to her abuse. Loads of other awful stuff too which is still going on. A big part of having me sabotaged on purpose along with others. Also sending Rory Mulholland Uncle, Private Detective, deals with Paper and Ex Security to high up peeps in Politics, JULIAN LITTMAN / Dan Carney and Fam moved into our Flats around the same time Julian came into our lives??? More about them further on. Julian is a Musician and Actor (pretend Socialist) and all round do-gooder. Massive Smear Campaigner, does it to others too. Plays us all off one another and thrives on making me and others feel insecure etc especially around our talents. Wants our self-esteem to come from him. Hates that I’m more confident nowadays. Has said awful tgings to me out of earshot. Also, lets me know he knows where I am at all times, and how he’s damaging my Flat through others etc then denies any involvement when I confront him about it. Kept prompting me re my OCD etc / finding out literally everything about what triggers me / what I struggle with to traumatise me further. Involved with charity work, etc, makes him and them look good. All part of the Mason’s being of Service delusion. Has had me watched closely, especially in AA Meetings in Town. I believe he’s a big part of having me followed etc. I imagine to keep my mouth shut around the constant abuse the family, etc, has subjected me to. Also, to sabotage me so I go back to him / need him. He’s extremely controlling! I am now coming to terms with the fact that Julian along with my Uncle and Mum have had me bullied, followed and abused including sexually since I was a Child. Also Dad’s Fam & Network / The Papers used the same tactics against him. Even though Mum is on it, she’s also had the same tactics used against her, which is still going strong! Julian definitely wants me to know now. He’s an awful person, and he does it covertly. They’re the worst ones! They’re not just doing it to us either. Anyone that doesn’t comply, basically. and it gets really dark! Smear Campaigns to keep me isolated.
Forbes Masson, Mel Masson – loves to belittle me cause apparently she’s really well 😅🤣😂. When I poured my heart out to her about everything that’s been going on over the years. She then went back to Muvva to tell how many issues I’ve got, etc. I found the texts aka Golden Child, up Muvva’s arse the majority of the time. Yes, Mum, No Mum, Three Bags fucking Full Mum. Even though Mum slags her off behind her back also. She also believes Mum’s bullshit about me because she has to live in some fantasy world cause her Mum was so awful. When my Mum had a heart attack, I was the only one who dealt with the reality of it all. Mel was somewhere in Lala Land. She doesn’t deal with anything! Frankie Dean – currently lodging with Mother – plays the game 😅🤣😂, plays it safe in general. He thinks he’s more manipulative than he actually is. I fell for some of it but not all of it, will tell all another time,
Mum’s Neighbours – Andy & Trish down the road,
Anna & Lenny connected to Mum,
Mark Green or Greene – Tory MP’s Son, lost my Virginity to him at 17 yrs old, he was 21. I was ridiculously drunk. Horrible situation especially afterwards. My Mum was awful about it too, she introduced me to him and his friends. They took me out on NYE. I couldn’t even get into a lot of the places due to looking so young, did eventually. We went out in Chelsea. He visited me in Hainault one night at my Dad’s House. My Dad was really concerned, obviously knew he was dodgy then Mark proceeded to comment on other Women when my Dad gave him a lift home. I think a lot of this harassment was to get to my Dad initially. Finding out more and more as the days pass.
Andrew Rosindell MP, Christine Vickery Counsillor & Hubbie, Charlie Keeble – I had to put really strong boundaries in with him, wouldn’t leave me alone!!!, Sue Butcher & Husband – again accidentally on purpose bumping into me when they don’t even live round here,
Paul Draper Photographer – Sent me Pics of my Dad’s Flat, his riding his Bike plus talking to a celebrity who wasn’t best pleased with him. He’s since deleted these via FB Messenger. Kept blaming Dad re rows with the paper. Very odd behaviour at Dad’s funeral and around me since. I came away from them both and told them what I really thought of them. Dad’s Old Friend, Dean Shephard – Dad’s Old Friend,
Certain Staff Members @theguardian, names to follow;
Helen Hellstern, Jaycee Falmer, Nicola Farrell, Northern Natalie, Linda, Irish Linda Mckenna bullied me very badly. Luke Manager, Vicki Bullivant, Simon Dogett, Warren Smith, John Coulson, loads of others, but they’re the main ones.
Kelly Hall & Boxer Son Sonny,
Jessamy Stoddart Hollyoaks,
SONNY GREEN Poet / Spoken Word Artist, Sid, Religious Recovery Group in Southend, Lola Lewis, James Wilsher,
JESSICA KIDDLE even threatened me with potential Slander if I said anything about her after CreativePosts around Fam etc a couple of yrs back. If that doesn’t have ‘guilt’ written all over it, I don’t know what does. I since told her how she upset me after only receiving it from her end. She then said “wow, a torrid of abuse”. Proper provoked me till I kicked off then shated it on social media along with Layla Mullins. Bob Kiddle, Victoria Kiddle, Georgia Kiddle – took me in for a couple of years in my early twenties as things at home with Dad got worse. He didn’t throw me out though. He was ringing them up asking for me back. Super controlling, didn’t want Rent even though I offered and grouped up if I didn’t behave in the way they wanted me to, wouldn’t tell me straight though. I spent a lot of that time at the Scout Hut to get away. I fekt so uncomfortable plus wasn’t used to living with three others, trauma, burnout, shit loads. Threw it back in me face later on after constantly blaming me, even on me Dad’s deathbed. Slagging us both off. I was angry at Dad for personal issues but come on. My Dad was dying so they saw that as an opportunity, not to comfort me but to further put us down. All they ever did in that kitchen of theirs was to gossip about other people. They’re never to blame for anything. Typical. Robert Sheridan, Ex Husband of Georgia, still around. Drives Buses and accidentally on purpose still bumps into me. Again – these ppl are brought up to feel as though they’re better than everyone else. Control, control, control…..and when I started sharing about Recovery, Jess would even compete with me re how much psychology terminology she knew. They always assigned me the role of the stupid one, when in actual fact, I was always smart, they just didn’t want me knowing that. I kinda played along to keep myself safe. How awful is that!
LAYLA MORGAN/ Mullins (constantly belittling me & offloading, likes to play the Victim) & Fam / Ex Daniel Mullins, Fam & Friends, Joanna Henson (& Partner Jamie Leigh-on-Sea, Morgan Bates, Romford, Robbie Williams (not THE Robbie Williams, another guy with the same name), Mick Williams (ex Gansgster types / I say Ex 😅🤣😂), Jane Williams – also connected to Step Dad Julian Littman as with the majority of the Network,
Victoria Cooper, Dan Cooper (Copper), Leanne Sell, Fam & Friends, Susan Coates, Andrew Barber, Katy Brown, Louise Steel, Laura Bailey,
Sam Speirs-Cater, Danny Cater, Dave Speirs & Sonja Speirs – kept on encouraging me to put my inheritance into property. Sabotaged setups to even get me to a place where I needed to go to Rehab in the first place.
MARIA STONE (one of the worst), more on that ltr. Co-erced me into a lot of sexual activities with guys from a young age. I would style it out but often felt horrendous afterwards. Some of this took place when I’d be really drunk / under the influence. Would take pictures of me drunk / out of ot then show my Mum. Playing me and others off one another. Wanted me there for her / would offload a lot but would purposefully dismiss what I was going through unless I was depending on her all the time / asking for advice etc. Would make me dependent on her then use that information as ammunition. Would constantly flirt in front of me with an Ex of mine to upset me. Would try to ruin days out or important dates on purpose. Would completely gaslight me and make me out to be the awful one when I called her out on anything. I thankfully built up my self-esteem enough to finally recognise it was her / not me and I had every right to do that. Didn’t want me to get Recovery support, and when I did, especially around the guy stuff, would bring up my past on purpose or trying to co-erce me back into it. In the end, just basically wanted me there to help her out with her Dog, Kids and Shopping when I had my own heakth issues and stresses to contend with. Paul Stone, Tommy Berrabe, Peter Berrabe (Maria’s Dad) very manipulative, a nasty piece of work…..even sent me a text once about him having a sexual dream about me. I put boundaries in straight away. I only discussed it with people at work at the time, I couldn’t tell Maria, my Mum or inner circle. He made sure of that..& Fam,
Mark / Sid Carter / Don Carter & Fam – Scout Leaders, Hainault abused my Mum and Myself, Kevin Thowney, John Sonny Evans, Ian Hughes, Simon Page, James Payne – kept trying to fuck me up when I was trying to / did get clean, Al Bass Player,
Alex Ball, Kim Ball & Fam, Danny Hodges – bumped into Alex and Danny last Summer I believe after years of not seeing them accidentally on purpose as always. Monte Solomon parked up nearby to have a look. I didn’t connect the two at the time. Alex kept coming up on my FB, obviously keeping an eye on me prior. I blocked him.
Dan Carney, Dad Jim Carney (now deceased), and Mum Jackie Carney – now Partner Michael – from our Flats in Hainault. Jackie now lives around the corner from me. I came away a while back when I realised how toxic they were and how much shit they and our block put my Dad through! And me x
Dave Russell, Son Mark Russell – Hainault originally. Go back years, Martin – very dodgy behaviour around me in a sexual manner especially when I turned 16,
Russell Bartram, Son Frankie Bartram – Romford, live down the Road from Mum, So much dodgyness, keeping an eye on me, trying to keep me stuck etc. Frankie got ants in his pants when I mentioned ‘The Masons’ over at Bonnie & Her Son’s Gaff,
Adam Knowles (Detective), Michael Brock NHS (ex Coke Addict / still an Addict of sorts whilst employing people for the Health Sector, tends not to employ qualified people at times just people in general – to get them into the system), loved telling me how Adam Detective got him off a potential abuse charge when he was arrested. I’m not sure if this is true or not as it came at a similar time when the police etc provoked me into being questioned at the station), just letting me know that if I spoke up, whoever would get off, Joe / Joseph Bell (Ex), had an altercation with him recently/ all provocation to wind me up but glad I got things off me chest anyways. They all keep accidentally bumping into me 😅🤣😂,Tom Corrupt Prison Officer, Chris Trott, Dan Habberley, Kirstin Devlin, Muddy / Barry Arnold, Gav Ex Copper, Kris Twyman – loved a good ole follow this year, Lauren Goddard, Michael Stobbart, Nanette Stobbart, Morph Holland, Tony McCallister, Sean O’Regan, Eve O’Regan and Fam / Friends, Caroline Slocombe, Jim, James Giraffe, Ross Lloyd (Ex) – literally stalked me into dating him – Setup – co-erced me into a dark sexual act, another one who kept telling me how ill I was etc whilst being abusive and yes, I did react, Robyn Donovan, Connor, Cash & Sanj from Utter Nutter Shop in Romford,
PC Nolan and Crew Southend-on-Seas. More Names to follow!!!
Michael Fitzgerald & Fam – Upminster (one of the worst) – my first overdose was due to him and other factors. Mum blamed him. He even gotta hold of my counsellor at the time. Said he wanted to see her. Now I know the real reasons why. Still wouldn’t leave me alone after my Mum had told him to. Deleted our text messages whilst in hospital, etc. I didn’t realise I was in an abusive situationship with him. Recently, had a stroke. Heavily involved with the Romford Film Festival, the Homeless and still training in the Therapy Sector, I believe. I’ve done so much Recovery since so I don’t end up taking tablets as the result of the above type scenarios again. Mostly not getting into / staying away from them in the first place.
Tom Peardon / Fam / Good Friend Matt Hughes AA (The Masons) and Partner Annie Sayer. She was trying to encourage me to get an Irish Passport for some reason.
Andy Perry (Ex) – Romford – had sex with me at his shop Warhammer. I know now to get me on camera etc. Has friends in the Police, Stewart English took humiliating video of me when I was really drunk. I woke up naked next to him after not remembering if we had slept together or not. He proceeded to show me the video from the night before, dancing on a stage etc. We then started dating. I briefly dated his friend before him. Was a bit cut up over him as he wasn’t making the effort to see me so dumped him. He turned up at the pub with a girl I knew who then became his GF. I was drinking heavily over problems with my Dad. I thought Stewart was being a friend. Really weird behaviour after my Dad died too. Was keeping an eye on me. They all kinda give these nods to one another when setting me up. I realise that now. I always assumed it was a looking at others inna fancying way / trying to make me jealous etc but it wasn’t that. Charlotte Trower, Husband Raj & her Family, Andy Brace Ex Military,
Billy Hounsome (Ex) Police, Mother Elaine Hounsome, Gavin Chapman Police, Paul McManus Community Police Officer,
Dani Walsh, Marie Walsh, Tommy Vegas, Bros Mike and Jack, Stef Musician, Rob Drummer, Mark Cole & Sis,
Sam Bibby (slept with me twice), Hemingway Band, Silent Natives, Simon Collins, Laura Simmons, Luke Rogers, Andy Downey & Fam, Sponsees Mark, John & Liam, Oliver, Claire AA, Trisha Burke, Mandy, Tracey Nurse AA, Anne Frewin AA now qualified Therapist, Karolina AA now qualified Counsellor, Marco Salon 23 Owner, Staff – Ali, Demi & Stacey, Nate Labour, Dad Paul, Sister, Heidi Past Sponsor / Works in the Services / Kate Past Sponsor & Therapist, Daniel Burns – was sent into Sanctuary Lodge Aftercare Meetings to get me into AA / and later to sabotage me on purpose. Thankfully, I never slept with him. Chris Reeves, John,
Dave & Daisy AA, Kate AA, Joe AA, Tracey AA / Nurse, Stewart AA NHS / Ex Military, Stuart AA,
Hadleigh Ford (Ex), Mother Eileen Ford – Hornchurch,
Chris Harrigan (Ex) & Fam – potentially connected to Dave Speirs who also used to tell me what my Dad said about me and apparently stood up for me,
Harvinder Kaur / Higgens & Fam – Helped Harvi then known as Parvita Kaur when I was 19 and she was 18. Her family were having her followed. She came to me for help so my Mum and I called The Police. Her Dad at the time threatened me via my mobile. When I turned to Harvi on numerous occasions for support whilst going through the same stuff, not knowing to the extent of what I do now, she was really dismissive and kept using similar tactics. I put my foot down at last and came away from her a couple of years back, might be longer now. I’m not sure if her becoming my friend in the first place was ever sincere or not. Hard to tell. I met her at a Workplace called Gecko in Camden.
Jane Collins, Partner Chris. Met them at Gecko, too, but they’re from my way and live in Chadwell Heath.
Natalie Johnson – constantly lent on me but again, when I needed support, was nowhere to be seen. Even declined. I wasn’t there for her in order to get something back. Didn’t realise I was being manipulated into being there for her and when I put boundaries in and was struggling myself, got one of her friends to try and make me feel guilty for it.
Brad Ex x2 & Fam,
Anita Chellamah (Mum’s Ex Bandmate / therapist at the Rehab I went to – Sanctuary Lodge (married to a Copper), Neil Austin Sanctuary LODGE prior, Nick Earl (Addiction Therapist prior / now Priory (both), Andy Downey Sanctuary LODGE prior, Maria Rogers Ex Therapist – co-erced me into a relationship of sorts with Andy Downey, also Ex The Lighthouse, Jane Arnold, Grant Selby, Danielle Byatt, Stephen Mallion, Derek McKenzie, Jack Curran – The Lighthouse / Step by Step Recovery, Stars, Paula Lee,
Alan Harper, Susan Harper, Lynn, Leslie Woodward, Adam Woodward (Dad’s Fam),
Matt Early Musician, Megan Hairdresser, Mal Hairdresser,
And yes there’s shit loads, and yes, I stood up to them all and have to stand up to paid harassment on a daily basis, and yes – they provoked me into certain reactions on purpose. I’m not the one with anything to hide.
Ewan Barr? South Records Shop, Southend
Chris Robson, Saida Bee, The Ondines, Kim Davey Focus Gallery & Boyf, Anne Odeke (Forbes Masson’s Friend), Jack, Connor Musicians, Darren The Long Run, David Woodcock & Partner Wendy,
Known Celebs in the area (let’s just leave it at that for now). I still admire their talent but it isn’t and never will be okay. There are loads of Mason’s in the industry, doesn’t mean I don’t appreciate their work but I certainly don’t agree with their ethics or politics in general x
Amy Solomon, Monte Solomon & Fam / Friends,
James Goulding Musician and General Twat!
Loads more to come yet but these are the main ones for now,
Steve Teacher – Romford, Margaret Maloney & Son’s, Gemma, made cleaning their house even harder than it should’ve been for Mum & I. Kept trying to encourage to go out with a dodgy Tradesman. I said “No”
I will add the surnames where I can
The Mason’s etc get whole communities involved. Organised Harassment has been well documented. They wanted me to realise they were following me a lot sooner than I did. I thought it odd but still put it all down to coincidences etc until I woke up to it all.
They all do this thing where they get angry / pissed off / pretend to be jealous of other guys or any kind of intimacy, etc, but they’re actually all a part of it including the girls!
Also, men flirting with me etc and manipulilating me into a position where I reach out or say something first. I imagine to use as evidence if I ever came forward around the exploitation / Abuse!
When I’m ready – I will list names of men and sex scenarios potentially caught on security cameras including phones, plus the names of women co-ercing me into really dodgy encounters / and telling me that certain guys fancied me. None of which was real. Setups.
Since being in Recovery around such
Although lonely at times and obviously really going through it at the hands of others, it’s still the happiest I’ve ever felt in myself since stepping away from them all. I’ve come on so much with regards to becoming more independent / creative/learning new survival skills / teaching myself new skills / clearly more than capable, especially with regards to my creativity! And they hate that. I’ve tried so many different ways of earning money to keep myself going or to further myself in a career, but they workplace mob me / sabotage me every single time. I obviously work very hard but not earning from it as of yet!
Tom Prison Officer (I’m not sure if this is still the case). Waiting on a surname
